I’m the first to admit that I’m a dreamer. I’m a huge romantic too but I think the two go hand-in-hand. I think everyone has dreams of what they want to be when the grow up. Then again, I turned thirty this year and I’m STILL growing up. I’m still learning and I’m still making mistakes. But here are 7 things I dreamed and hoped with all my heart and soul that I’d get to do some day, and how I’m now keeping parts of these dreams alive.
Background: I was fortunate enough to be raised in a loving family where my mother had the opportunity to be a stay-at-home wife and mother. Since I’m the oldest, I was her right hand man and learned from her. She gave me an appreciation of cooking, cleaning, and helping others in the family. She was a first hand example of sacrificial love. I adore family. And I wanted to be a wife and mother.
Reality: I’m unable to have children. Having this knowledge before being married and trying for children has been difficult. It has ended every truly serious relationship I’ve had since. Half of me understands. If you really long for children, I’m not the woman who can give you that. The other half of me feels incredibly hurt by being rejected for something beyond my control. I resigned myself to the fact that I probably won’t marry. So just how am I keeping this dream alive? Well for starters, I’m a fabulous mom of a black lab. And let me tell you…that is more work than you can imagine because he is a troublemaker. I’ve also decided to love, spoil, and create relationships with the children I do have in my life. Just because it might be my best friend’s child, doesn’t mean they couldn’t benefit from my love too.
Background: I’ve always dreamed of having the grace of an athlete. Both of my siblings were Olympic level athletes. I wanted to excel in sports too!
Reality: I. Have. No. Coordination. At all. For serious. I like to think it is maybe…just maybe…charmingly adorable. I’m keeping this dream alive by being a kickass Ping Pong player. If I worked hard enough at it maybe I could even follow in the footsteps of Forrest Gump and be a world champion!
Background: I graduated from high school at the age sixteen and had lofty ideas of going into medicine. I was a bit of an overachiever. I wanted to be a doctor that dealt with babies in the womb, or born prematurely, a Neonatologist.
Reality: I quickly discovered that I really, really hate biology classes. So that was out. I was happy to leave this dream fully in my past! I soon started thinking about what I really loved…
Background: …and what I really, really loved was the news. I still love it. On days I’m at home I usually have a 24 hours news network on mute in the background. (I want to be up-to-date on breaking news!) There is no bones about it, I’m a news junkie…and I love to write. So I was going to be a journalist. The thought of taking the news to the people was exciting to me! Living in the moment of exactly what was happening sounded like so much fun.
Reality: A brain injury took away my ability to do any sort of technical writing. I’m keeping my dreams of being a journalist alive by obsessively reading news stories, and writing creatively…which I’m still able to do. I’m also pretty opinionated about most things, even if I don’t always make my opinions known. I look at it like having my own, private, running editorial column in my head.
Background. Duh. Who doesn’t want to own a professional sports team?!
Reality: Well, I’m dominating in my family/friends football pool. That has to count for something, right? I’ll keep working on this one while I cheer on my beloved Green Bay Packers.